Do you only emerge when you feel good? There are some people that you see all of them. The good, the bad and the ugly. Maybe for some, it is just good all of the time right? Let's get real, life is not good ALL of the time but some make it seem that way. I have had moments where I was humiliated and broken and wanted to hide in my house and not leave for weeks. I was sad, lost, hopeless, discouraged and just really didn't want to talk to or see anyone except my husband and kids. I was not depressed, I was at a loss for INFORMATION and help with my new problem. Doctors? Yes, I went to one, and then another and another and another and well you get the picture.
Humiliation was at an all time high and was controlling me. I was stuck in this new hell that was controlling my every move. Or should I say the lack of movement. Can't barely do dishes, check. Can't barely cut food, check. Can't brush out hair, check. Showering well that is just exhaustion wrapped up in a sweaty mess and yes I said sweat and shower together because it was a workout just to wash my hair and shower. Laundry...HA. Carrying laundry baskets was not just a chore, it was hell. My arms would be on fire and ache so deep that tears would flow and I couldn't even stop.
Do you have uncontrollable
~Exhaustion(not just being tired but falling asleep at the drop of a hat kind of exhaustion)
~Emotional stress from physical weakness
~and many more
These symptoms match MANY descriptions in the medical world. There were so many theories on what was wrong with me. I heard everything from MS, to ALS, to Nuero issues, to EBV, to Autoimmune and well my all time favorite ....It is in your head so go see a shrink. Many tears flowed and one day I said no more. I am going to do my own research and be my own advocate and FIX MYSELF! I didn't WANT to be this way, what were they thinking?
I know I can overcome this. I am STRONG MINDED. I am DETERMINED. I WANT MY LIFE BACK.
I .....NEVER GIVE UP.
And guess what? I didn't give up. I learned a lot and now I want to help YOU!
If you have ever had moments like these and want to share your story, message me. I would love to chat with you and see if I can help you find a solution. Someone reached out to me, and I am now passing it forward and reaching out to you.
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~Fight Back, Never Give Up~
1. Do you ever get that overwhelming feeling of exhaustion in your arms? Your hands and arms ache as you wipe off the kitchen counter. It starts with a little burn and then rushes into a deep ache that doesn’t quickly go away with stopping what you are doing. That can’t be real. Am I really that sore and tired that they burn and ache doing something simple like wipe crumbs off a counter? Maybe, I just rode my horses too long yesterday or maybe I pulled something while dirt biking. That is what I used to tell myself until it wasn’t just one day. It was one day, then another, then another and then months went by and years. Confusion? YES! Lots of it! I did not understand, I was so active and so healthy and life was…ok. So, what was the issue?
2. Stepping out of the shower and my world was about to drop to the ground. That was exhausting. Lifting my arms to wash my hair and scrub my body and here I am fresh out of the shower but yet I worked up a sweat showering. I looked around for somewhere to sit down and rest. I rested for an hour, two hours, three hours before I could get up and brush my teeth and get dressed. Does this sound crazy to you? I thought so too. I have this overwhelming never give up attitude so here I go. I am going for it! I stand up and go to the sink to brush my teeth. Grab the toothpaste, grab the toothbrush, load it up and raise the toothbrush to my mouth. Pause, why is my arm so painful? It is a toothbrush; it weighs hardly anything. Ok fine, I reach over with my other arm and grab my elbow and lift it so that I can help my arm while I brush my teeth. This is ridiculous…This cannot be from overdoing it the day before or pushing myself too hard. Can it?
3. Laundry day! Lets do this! I reach over and grab the laundry basket and it comes about two inches off the ground. OK set it down. Ready lets do this again. Deep breathe, bend knees, LIFT! The basket falls back against me and I brace it against my stomach and my knees and take baby steps all the way to the laundry room. I set it down and I am out of breath. Seriously? Is this real? Did a laundry basket just kick my ass? (excuse the language lol) Lets not even talk about trying to get the wet laundry out of the washer. We will save that for another time. All of this has me humiliated, in pain, lost, scared, surprised, terrified and a bunch of other feelings that I could list. Enough was enough. What next? Who do I ask for help? How do I explain what is wrong? I sound dramatic, silly, and nonrealistic so how will they not just laugh at me?
THIS is how to know when there is a bigger problem going on. Do you relate to any of this? Message me, because no matter how embarrassed you are, humiliated, or how dumb you think your question will sound, trust me, I have been there. Message me to find ways to feel better!
Here is my take on things...
Inflammation is the process your body has for fighting against things that harm it. Things like infections, injuries, and toxins. When something damages your body then your immune system “fights back”. Kind of like me 😉 So when does that turn into a bad thing and cause pain?
When it becomes CHRONIC. Chronic inflammation can cause cardiovascular disease, breast cancer, lung cancer, arthritis & joint pain, obesity, allergies, psoriasis, asthma, diabetes, colitis & Crohn’s disease, infection, blindness and more. Do any of those scare you? They should. Chronic inflammation is damaging to our bodies and is the reason for so many people suffering with pain. I was one of those people.
Stiffness is a pain. Literally. It prevents us from doing the things that we love. How about saddling a horse? Imagine this, the weight of the saddle causes your arms to burn, your stomach to tighten, and your shoulders to ache. You heave the saddle up onto the horse and with a great big breath of relief, you take a break. Then you reach for the cinch and latigo and your hands just aren’t working right. You thread it through and slowly tighten it on your horse. When you are ready to pull it tight your hands ache so bad that you start to shake and throb. You finally get it tight and again, take a breath and a break. What is wrong? This should be so easy. Chronic inflammation in my joints and my hands makes my hobby of riding such a pain.
When your inflammatory levels are normal then life is much easier to do daily tasks. Lets take laundry for instance. Have you ever sat on the floor in front of your washer and tried to pull the heavy wet laundry out and you just couldn’t. When I say couldn’t I mean, bracing your legs against the washer, reaching in and grabbing small amounts of laundry and while your hands are shaking and burning you give it all you have and BAM. You get “some” of the laundry out and slam back into the wall behind you. Yes that used to be my world. Crazy isn’t it? Sounds fake, dramatic, and unnecessary right? Trust me, I know. Humiliation is something I became very used to. My days have gotten better but this is a battle that I will manage for my entire life. Do you ever wonder to yourself will this pain go away? It can. Life can be easier and better! I have researched and had so many trials and errors to get to where I am and I want to share this with you.
Check out my “Fight Back Secret” to learn some ways that you can FIGHT BACK against your pain.
It is a passion of mine to help others out there that are suffering. Even if it is lending an ear. Message me for more details, or questions or just to talk through things.